It may not have been true love, but it sure as hell was true heartbreak.
All I Wanted
All I wanted was that final gesture of our love and life, instead you sent me an e-mail full of hate. Now it has been a year and I’ve learned it’s not one final gesture, it’s the lifetime of things unspoken, actions not committed that led us to our end. Thank you for your support, thank you for the memories. I wish you well, but I’ll never be strong enough to tell you in a manner other than an anonymous post.
You helped me to tear down my walls and then reminded me why they were there in the first place.
I mistook your arrogance for confidence and rudeness for honesty. I saw you as a tortured soul rather then the jerk you are. Now I’m older and wiser, but I know if I ever see you again, I’ll fall right back in love with you. So stay away.
Couldn’t have said it any better
I drove 6 hours just to see you and you couldn’t make the time for a cup of coffee. I see where your priorities are. It’s time that I change mine.
That’s exactly right
Telling You Stories
You know what I really miss? Telling you stories, and how your eyes smile as you listen to them.
Maybe I Didn’t
Maybe I didn’t give you butterflies, or the thought of me didn’t make you sweat. Maybe you actually never had a crush on me. But you respected me and, most importantly, made me be myself around you. Thank you.
It’s hard to believe how much life changes for each and one of us… I’ve learned to love and forget so much this year, I’ve learned to take every hardship and just be thankful that I went through it and came out of it alive and stronger. My life hasn’t been easy and I don’t think it will ever be, and for that I’m grateful, because if it wasn’t for that I wouldn’t be able to experience and feel the different emotions like I have. I learned to love someone even when they have left me alone to deal with the hardest hardship in my life….. And even still with all that I wake up everyday and l love and care for that person more deeply than anyone can imagine. Crazy??? Yes it is, but I understand that person and he understands me, and even though we don’t express our feelings to each other, just a simple look, a simple smile or a simple call/text says all those feelings and grateful words that we are so afraid to say. And even though we most likely never end up being together I am glad that I got to experience and explore the things we did, those things have helped me shape myself in one way that I can only understand. I’ve also experience hatred and sadness in levels that I didn’t think my heart could deal with, levels that I wasn’t sure I could see the light in that dark room, but I did and I knew I had to feel that hatred and sadness, because it was the way life wanted me to heal, I had to mourn the lost of something so precious. It made me strong and even though I know sometimes I can numb myself so I don’t have to get hurt, I remember that I’ve gone through hard enough things than anyone can imagine and I’ve come out stronger and happier. Not a second goes by that I realize I will love to the fullest and it will cause me pain doing so, but it’s a risk that my heart, mind And soul are willing to go through. So when life gets hard, when you love someone unconditionally after all the good and bad….know that love can help cure any pain or sorrow, because nothing is easy and we have to get hurt in order to grow up and become stronger human beings. I choose to love him regardless of what we’ve been through, and he knows that…… I know deep down he can read past my looks, my smiles and my calls/texts, because as long as I’m still here I’ll take life challenges and happiness with arms wide opens, choose to live in the here and now because you never know when your life might come to an end.
Only You Hold That Ability
You are the only person who holds the ability to make me question my marriage.